remember that uncertainty?

Guess what turned up on today's calendar!!

Brunei International Tattoo 2006

I've been meaning to post this, but the internet's been sucky. hmph.

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Firstly, I know how confusing it is.

Watehell do they mean by an international tattoo???

Google the definition of tattoo and u'll get the regular "ink on skin" tattoo, and "a drumbeat or bugle call that signals the military to return to their quarters " tattoo.

Infinitely surprising, it is.

So anyway, go here to read up a bit on this BIT. Introduction's far too long for this lazy bum. In summary, its a military band performance to celebrate our Sultan's 60th birthday. We've got 13 contingents performing:

Brunei

Australia

China

Philippines

Singapore

Malaysia

Indonesia

Thailand

Vietnam

Jordan

Oman

Pakistan

United Kingdom

I didn't manage to get tickets to see the performance though. Its at the end of this month. Right when the exams start. *sob* Sold out real quick. Bummer. Cos after ****yesterday, I reaaaaally wanna see em perform.

****Yesterday (Sunday), each district received 4 contingents to parade on the streets. Here in good ol KB, we got Brunei, Singapore, Jordan and Indonesia. They started from the Boat Club somewhere towards town, then along Jln McKerron then to the padang. At bloody 2pm. I didn't mind that the sun was awesomely hot though. wakakakakaka.

I can tell you, the best was Indonesia. @@

They had frickin' drummers in animal skin!!! And they had rockin' island beats and they were really really groovin. Wish I got audio+video but the cam couldn't hold so much. tsk. The best I can do was clip burst.




This one swinging the bass with his teeth. = =" Repeatedly.

Migawd their pyramids are the best I ever saw.




Migawd the leaders threw around those sticks high up into the air and caught em like nothing. And those sticks are actually shakers!!! You can hear like beads or something rattling everytime they shook it. Ay caramba.

Migawd them soldiers are the tallest and fittest real men (regardless Asian or non-Asian) I've ever seen. I mean, whoa, they're usually in action. Real heroes!

After watching that performane, me dad n I spontaneously decided to drag mum up also to Bandar to watch the Grand Parade, at night, on the day! wakakakakaka.

Sigh. I heart city lights.

life hands you lemons, you throw it back

unconfirmed

everything in my life right now has a sticker on it that says
unconfirmed
everything that matters, that is

it is not so much the possiblity of plans not falling through
but the damned, horrible uncertainty of it all
that affects me the most
- security is a luxury
and the rest of us have to settle with
unconfirmed

someone told me that it is the very same uncertainty
that makes life all the more precious
all the more meaningful
it is hard to argue with that logic

i might end up working in a dull and uninspiring environment
i might have to settle away from people i care about
i might not be able to sustain relationships
i might change
i might
i might not

but at this point,
i am not dwelling on it anymore
might as well just seize the day
and do what i want
i only get one chance

carpe diem

Fackyoo Garage Sale

Being a gooooooood buddy, I'm helping ol Syn to advertise his garage sale =)

Date: This week till Sunday 30 July 2006
Time: Any appropriate time. XD
Place: lot 4612, simpang 28, jalan maulana, 2nd house from the main road

Items for sale:
- rewritable CDs + softwares
- Pokemon cards
- Goosebumps
- Animorphs
- framed jigsaw puzzle of Mona Lisa with Mr Bean's face
- PCE, PMB and O Level books + notes + written junk useful for students
- ladies clothes
- and many other things he hasn't told me about, or doesn't want me to know XD

wakakakakakka. I've already booked some neat stuff. Don't forget its a garage sale, so you should get there soon if you want some.

Oh, as the saying goes, "Everything must go!"

***Contact Syn.

disclaimer!

It is a photoshopped image.

It is all a big LIE, i tell you.

Do NOT believe what you saw.

And to my dearest sister, you wait till I get my hands on you....

Friends, random readers of this blog...I implore to your good sense to ignore the previous post.
Or risk dying of laughter.

Inside of You

EEK!

Hoobie's newly released video: Inside of You

Plus pictures of the shoot at www.hoobastank.com

*drool*

being the geek

Being a geek, I use the computer almost 24 hours. I love my PC more than myself. XD

Naturally, I play PC games.

Naturally, I have to hold down the SHIFT button for a long time. Or I'll be pounding on it.

Naturally, Bill Gates and MS idiots invented Sticky Keys and Filter Keys which can't be bloody turned off in spite of their Accessibility Options panel.

To those errr uninformed, these options are meant to aid disabled people who can't hold down more than one key at a time. And the whole bloody irony of it is that you need to hold down TWO or even THREE keys simultaneously to turn the damn thing off.

Bill Gates is the devil.

look at me kissing him

Yesterday I made a new acquaintance.
He shook my hand and nearly broke my bones.
I do not consider myself as fragile
but yesterday, I had to smile through gritted teeth
for the three seconds he squeezed my already scarred and worn appendage.
It was a refreshing break from the limp, soft and barely-there handshakes
I seem to get from people these days.
Get a spine people! Put some oomph into it!
Speaking of which...

Today a friend told me she made out with someone else
to try and forget her boyfriend.
I told her not to ruin her reputation in the process.
I also found out that the someone else is already engaged,
why is it that the notion of fidelity and trust so easily discarded
by the very people who bemoan their supposed emotional baggage
and who should know better.

Relationships are an odd topic
they can be fulfilling and also, utterly meaningless
however way you like it, hot cold or like porridge nine days old
I suppose my idea of love and all else it entails
is antiquated and highly idealistic
but I very much prefer daydreams to the sordid
reality of cheating partners, shallow minds and absent morals.

You've got the girl who is never without a prince charming
you've got the boy who constantly deals with accusations from his suspicious girlfriend
you've got the husband secretly cheating on his wife with a teenage schoolgirl
you've got the wife who ran away with the husband's best friend
so many many examples of people in and out of love
love like a slick and glossy revolving door
love packaged in a neat and sexy box
hot, cold or like porridge nine days old.

Fashion Opinions?

I'm thinking of saving some money to buy this:

Wadya think?

Or dyu think I'll look better in this??

*thinking thinking*

Just some plans on what to get for myself for my birthday. wakakkakakakakakakaka.

i see you

Its really funny how some people think that we don't know, but we do actually know and think its pretty obvious.

Its really funny how some people function in large groups, but are reduced to nothing in small groups. Its as if they don't have anything of personal interest when it comes to interpersonal relationships. Its no wonder they don't have any real friends. Looks like the loudness and attention-getting thing doesn't work very well in life.

Oh man oh man, I'm so glad I'm who I am and not one of them, ever. I may not appear to have many many friends or hang outers, but I have real, solid stand-by-me buddies. Who are you going to call when you're stuck?

Anyhoo, that's your problem if you're one of them. Stop all the bull**** if you really want to end up with buddies next year huh? Don't give without sincerity, and for toad's toes, don't think we don't know what you really are.

Man these people are so annoying. tsk tsk tsk.

Mundane blues. I've got classes till 3.30pm tomorrow. *sob* Exams start in 2 weeks. *sob sob*

Sleep In

- Download -

solitude always happens
like the sun in your eyes
hidden in my dreams
beyond my reach
its alright give me time

stop holding back
what you have
stop fearing this
what we have
stop
you're hurting me

feel the prints of rosy buds
solid wood of my guitar
night, windy nights
face the wind
under the stars
under the clouds
under the moon
under you

sleep in, sleep in, sleep in
cover me
shelter me

its alright give me time
its alright give me time

Remy Zero's Fair

Hey, are you lonely?
Has summer gone so slowly?
We found the ground
And that damage was done
It's cold as you fade into the sun
Where'd you go? To me.

But you're alive!
Well, it's only
Fallen frames, they told me
You stand out, it's so loud
And so what if it is?
It's cold as you face into the wind
Where'd it go?
(Tonight the sun shall see its light)

So what if you catch me,
Where would we land?
In somebody's life
For taking his hands
Sing to me hope as she's
Thrown on the sand
All of our work
Is raided again
Where to go?

And you were somehow
The rain this thing could allow
I tried
But it's all wrong
You're so strong
And this life and work
And choice took far too long
Where'd it go?
(Tonight the sun shall see its light)

So what if you catch me,
Where would we land?
In somebody's life
For taking his hands
Sing to me hope as she's
Thrown on the sand
All of our work
Is raided again

When I was sure you'd follow through
My world was turned to blue(so thin)
When you'd hide your songs would die
So I'd hide yours with mine
And all my words were bound to fail
I know you won't fail

See, I can tell...

one hour in one night

mother commented on my choice of clothes again
do i consider myself a boy or a girl
the only word i can think of is "versatile"
i'm sorry if i'm unfeminine
i'm sorry if unshaved legs are gross
i'm sorry if the only assets a female is supposed to have are breasts
i'm sorry that you think that way
because i thought you were different
this masculine feminine thing has been a question in people's heads all their lives
am i tomboyish. am i girlish. am i just a freak.
you know, i never really cared.
because some people, no matter how far or how not often i get to speak to them
they left me with words
and belief
and trust
and pride
in me
they like me for who i am
these people are always the farthest from me
yet, the closest
irony is everywhere huh
i don't like judgements
so much to the point i get myself pushed over
like today
he walked past me and his file scraped my hand
its red and cut now
small thing
but i let him get away without an apology
not even a look
i'm angry at myself
i'm frustrated when i let people use me
break me
because i'm not the type to judge
so much to the point these things happen
i'm so tired
do you know why i like the drive down the highway at night
i like it because its endless
the dark roads and the passing headlights go on and on
on and on
i like the way the headlights glare into my eyes when they flash by
because i can see darkness and light at the same time
you don't get to do that anywhere else
there's a full moon tonight
and a light sprinkle of stars
i watched the sky for a moment
and i forgot there was someone sitting next to me
and i had a difficult time breathing again
remembering
thinking
obssessing
grieving
you know, sometimes i don't feel at all for days
and days
and days
i can't feel simple happiness
disappointment
anger
but sadness
not even remorse
maybe its because i haven't found something which i really cared about
something close
or maybe,
its because people don't know what i care about
so i can't relate to things that they talk about
i'm only tired of the void
and the voicelessness
who would listen to my silence
when i have nothing to talk about
when i have a million things in my head
when the only understanding we can have is silence
i want next year to happen so badly
i want people to know me so badly
i don't want to be the one to initiate conversations anymore
i don't want to be the one to ask
i don't want to be the one to come up with ideas
i just want somebody new
i dont need anything materialistic
i need somebody different
sometimes i wonder if life is worth it
all this came to me tonight
in just an hour or so
there's no line between infatuation, obsession or curiousity
to me
its all the same
i'm a person
not defined by my sexuality
not defined by my speech
not defined by my non-actions
maybe i'm just not defined
i still like sad songs though
tonight seems like a good night for sad songs

you don't know the greatness you are

you feel like a bumbershoot
looking at dark clouds all day
getting wet and cold
while others get sheltered
and not notice anything at all
while life goes on
and yours doesn't seem to

not at times like these
hot chocolate only warms the stomache
and you ran out of sad movies
so there's no more excuse to cry
you hope sad songs can do
...for the mean time

you wonder if thoughts
if thoughts can fuel a person
to keep them going
without really feeling anything
like PMS without hormones

how are you
how did you manage to get this far
how do you know you'll go further
you say all those things about not caring
not feeling
avoiding touch and familiarity
avoiding kisses

you break in private
all by yourself
where's the comfort in that
you seem to be alone
most of the time
you're alone in your mind

did you like those memories
did you feel good
will you ever again
everything seems to be touch and go
maybe its a one time experience
that and life too

you know
that's enough

(2) You're my brand of wit

Partner in crime, shoot me with sardonic wit
How have you been?
You promised you'd drive me around
once you get your license
I promised to stop crashing the car
everytime I parked
When did we ever say goodbye to the sun?
The one that's the most beautiful by the beach
It's only pretty because it's home
How many times have we argued about life, love
and everything else till our coffees turned cold?
What time is it?
Time to grow up but not old
It's been five, six, seven years now
too soon, I feel but I'm happy anyway
You've come a long way
from being the boy who walked alone in the dark
- you finally made it to camp.

(1) From Number Seven

I remember you
you offered me a seat
I didn't expect you
to remember me
but you did 'you're number seven'
my mom laughed and said you're talkative
but I thought you're cute

It was light years away
- this present
who would've thought
we'd still be here
closer than ever
we should be thankful
for what we have now

It was fascination, adoration
then we went our own ways for a while
but we're still here, aren't we
and that matters most
what might've been never passed
I'm so glad for that
we're still here








N.B.:this is the beginning of an anthology of pieces dedicated to my dearest friends (sorely missed)

look what i found!

Hey widdle boys and girls, I just remembered I created this a long time ago. Few years back. No lyrics, just good melodies. All digital. ^^

Pink me!

NB: this was supposed to be OGDC's theme song, but those 1*beep*2 didn't even acknowledge my song. hmph. Yay to pirating! =D

SMSA students

for my childhood friend

its really difficult to put into words the thoughts i'm going through. aainaa's leaving tomorrow, i said my goodbye today. i didn't stay long, but my gift will. its funny how it took only an hour to make my mind switch into 'real life' mode.

we're going our separate ways after so many years together. its bittersweet, like saying goodbye to a child. i dont know. for once, i dont have much words to say even though i feel like saying so many things.

we know its not forever, but we also know so many things can change between now and a few years later.

till then, check here always, na. this is where u can find this girlfriend. =)

onwards, troops!

how did we get here?

Helloooo
Whatcha doin?
*laughs* Oh come on, that was the lamest line ever.
Me? Well, nothing really...just getting my papers sorted out for tommorow.
Coffee? Tommorow afternoon? Yeah, sure, why not?
4pm at the usual?Should I get everyone else or are you going to call them?
Cool, cool, can't wait.
See you there

Hey baby
Is this a bad time? No? Great, just wanted to have a chat before I sleep, I guess.
Things are so-so, nothing out of the ordinary.
How's your cold? I hope you're taking medicine for it.Take more fluids ok?
Sure, sure, get some rest tonight.
Goodnight baby, take care of yourself.
Goodnight baby, sweet dreams

Hey
What's up?
...
...
No, I'm still here.
...
I guess I'm just tired, too.
...well, you should get back to whatever you were doing then.
...
Night

Hey
Yes, it's been a while.
That's good, that's good.
Well I guess things are alright for me, pardon?
We've been seeing each other for 6 months now, yourself?
Oh ok, sounds promising.
...this is a little awkward isnt it? *uncomfortable laughter*
Don't worry about it, it's probably normal.
Dinner this weekend sounds great, looking forward to it.
Sure, can't wait to catch up with you - it has been a long time.
See you there